An Inspection into the Dangers of Society

R. Fuko

September 20, 2010

An Inspection into the Dangers of Society

An Introduction to Fuko

Feel it. The air, because that’s where it is. The water mixes with it spectacularly. It scatters itself across my face and body warmly like a mother’s embrace. For as long as I can remember the shower has been a source of comfort in my life: it’s a unique place and time for introspection and self-expression. You won’t hear my singing much anywhere else. I love my shower.

For those of you who are late in knowing me, here is what you need to know.

- My name is Regimund Fuko.

- I am a critically-acclaimed and successful writer, having six books available to purchase at your local Borders or Barnes & Noble. I honestly don’t care between the two. For convenience I go with Amazon.

- My wife died a few years ago. I loved her. I don’t think there’s going to be another woman for me and honestly I’m not looking. She is my muse for writing. Before, when she was alive, she gave me peace and inspiration. Now her memory disperses my sentiments among nostalgia, anger and maybe ultimately a little feeling of redemption.

- Two years ago I was diagnosed as going through a terrible Major Depressive episode in which I drowned myself in alcohol, cigarettes and writing. After self-diagnosing and getting my life together, I began practicing healthier habits and taking anti-depressants.

- My most recent book is about a Space Cowboy named Dream. It was published about a year and a half ago. I got a lot of inspiration from the anime series “Cowboy Bebop,” and even stole one of their taglines. They didn’t like it at first, but it ended up bolstering their sales anyway.

Every morning I wake up and shower. It’s my routine and it lets me decant, depressurize and begin my day with resolve and pleasance. The shower is the good part, and it used to be the only good part because it is there that I lose myself in nature. Some of my friends call that ironic. I tell them to fuck off. But I have things to enjoy and ways to enjoy things that may not have been as pleasant before. There’s a degree of autonomy the sun allows that helps facilitate my day: it’s a communicable notion of existence that ingratiates itself upon my mental faculties. Or so I’m led to believe. But the weather demonstrates a lot of properties that can be applied to reasons to wake up and sometimes the weather is all I need.

When I get out of my shower I always brush myself off with a towel. There was a song that came out about 8 years ago about getting dirt off of one’s shoulder and sometimes I think that the young African-American who sang it was talking about showering. Of course I’m kidding. That would not be politically correct. The point being that I take a shower to get literal dirt off of my shoulders and then use a towel to brush that off, like the song, which is of course not what the young African-American is not denoting. Rather, for him, it is both a statement of one’s position in life as well as a snazzy dance move. I think it used to be all the rage with the youth of this generation. Now it has descended into my own private joke.

When I look in the mirror I make sure that my teeth are clean in all aspects of the word, especially looking for stains on the back sides of my lower teeth. Sometimes I look into the mouths of people when they talk and they have terrible stains and it’s really bothersome. Earwax too. I really dislike earwax for some reason: it just seems like people really have no hygiene these days. The mirror generally shows a body that could be better and a face that could use shaving. Honestly, shaving is completely overrated. Today, however, I have to shave. I am, after all, a representative of myself and thus have to construe a level of professionalism when I am attending to people. I run my own publication house that makes all of its money off of my books, because those are the only books that it sells. I created it a long while ago, after my first novel. If you don’t remember, it got glowing reviews and was a national bestseller. Yes, of course. The Taoist Chainsaw. That one. I’ll admit, 1995 was a good year for me, at least in terms of my commercial success. God, the New York Times loved me.

Shaving doesn’t take that long, but it is annoying. It takes just enough time to be inconvenient. God, I’m White. I stumbled onto this blog called white whines that has a different whine from a White person each day and realized how many of those I had fallen into. “Oh wow, another ‘Wonderwall’ cover. Never heard that one before.” Insignificant, but still. I’ve already heard the Oasis version enough. And shaving is just another whine from a white person. The electric razor slides across my face like a lawn mower. That’s a rather apt metaphor. I leave half of my face unshaven and look in the mirror. My brown eyes gaze back and I start to smile and then I start to chuckle and before I know it I’m howling from my stomach because of this funny man staring with half a beard on his face. And so I compose myself and finish the job.

My lexapro sits on my sink. I take 5 mg in the morning and 5 at night, just to balance out when the effect really hits. I pull out the mirror from the wall (I have one of those mirrors that rests on a hinge and you can pull it out from the wall) and take my deodorant from its insides and apply it viciously to my underarms, pulling my lips together and making a quick inhaling noise as if I were undergoing a surgical procedure awake, maybe even mummification. I appreciate the small things in life.

From there I walk out of the bathroom and pick out a shirt and a pair of jeans. Can’t look too good for people. Have to retain some angst-ridden artistic visual from my tormented past. God, I’m funny. The shirt is red. The jeans are blue. I choose my checkered-vans for shoes. Hey even a middle-aged man can have some style, right? I hope I’m right.

I pick up my wallet and keys and phone and make my way out of the apartment. I’m still on the thirty-second floor. I’ve really adapted to it to tell you the truth because I’ve made a friend. His name is John Pinkerton and he lives in 1403. When he first introduced me to himself I thought he was odd, but he really is one of the nicest people I know and really exceedingly genuine, which is something that I don’t think is too prevalent nowadays. We grab a beer once a week and will go do things together just for shits and giggles. He’s a bit younger than me, but is very intelligent and for some reason unmarried. I’ll never really understand it. I mean, he’s not gay, but he just doesn’t really show any interest towards women. One of those people who just gets a lot of pleasure out of life. He actually really opened my eyes up to possibility. Him and Maria of course.

Honestly, I can get to work whenever I want. That means I can walk to work, which is something I usually do. It, like my shower, is an instance of my taking some solace and feeling the particles of nature move around me. Some days I take public transport all through the city just to feel it beat around me: there’s a BlackStar song called respiration and it starts out saying “Escuchela, la ciudad respirando,” meaning “Listen to her, the city breathing.” On public transportation you hear the echoing of the tracks reverberating off of the metal carcass of the urban serpent. That noise colors your perception of the city that passes you by. Or are you passing it by? I still haven’t made up my mind. The phenomenon isn’t the same when you walk. You can feel the city of course, but I think you get to feel the humans that make it up better and the construction around. Impatient cars scream to each other and humans walk and run and the crazies on the corner play drum patterns on buckets. When you walk you see all of this. That’s why I do it. To feel right about where I’m living.

A long time ago I ran away and no one really knew where I went. And to tell you the truth, I’d rather leave my whereabouts unexplained. I might explain it later, but you should know that I now understand that the American dream has been perverted and it’s not just American anymore: it’s” A Mexican” dream. Notice how there is only one letter of difference between the two? Like all things, it’s been outsourced.

The reason I bring this up is in relation to the paragraph before. You see, I could have stayed off and lived on my own away from society, but I thought I had some things to say and apparently the world thought so too when it finished listening to what I said in my books. But that’s a lousy excuse for a reason to stay away from the people you’ve grown up with and the people who really made a difference in your life. And when I look closer into the reasons behind everything, I don’t know why I came back. Recognition? I don’t think I’m that simple.

I used to look down on my employees because I thought they were all a bunch of money-grabbing two-faced professionals. Ivy-league or some top 100 school that gives them a license to wear their britches too tightly for the rest of their lives. Now I think the same thing, but I find it way funnier now that I think about how they latch onto me. Needless to say, I don’t have a huge publishing business or anything. It’s really only for my books, so we really only take up a few offices. There are currently seven people who work for me, not including the interns. And the interns liven up the place so much. Endless entertainment I swear to God. I have them do menial things for the majority, but you definitely get gems every once in a while.

There was one guy who always wore vests, and don’t get me wrong, I think vest day is the best day, but it never seemed to go along with the jacket that he wore, or it just somehow managed to look awkward. I didn’t point it out, but eventually one of the full-time staff members did and he got flustered and so he just stuck to common clothes. You see, I don’t require people to dress a certain way. I take the Google model. I never told him that I missed his vests, though, and sometimes I regret that. I thought they were great.

The reason I bring this up is to give you a better idea of how my office works. It’s a pretty free environment. I worked pretty hard to open up our company to innovation and to give us the best results, at least in the past few years. I have people who work for a purpose and I believe that people should be peers in any sort of company in order to do the best work. People can approach me with anything and likewise I can approach them. They, of course, still see me as a boss since I hand them their paycheck, but it’s different in that I expect them to tell me if I’m doing anything wrong. I have the ability to veto their suggestion, but that’s about it in all seriousness. So we only have a few offices. I made sure to station the company in a nice area so that my employees would enjoy going to work and now I’ve perfected that pretty well I think.

I spend my time there doing PR a lot or working on my new novel. I treat writing like a job because it is that. The best writers spend a certain amount of time writing every day and I try to do the same. I used to fuel my writing with alcohol and cigarettes and tears over my dead wife, but now I fuel it in better, more healthy and constructive ways. I spend my lunch hour in the gym on the first floor running or lifting. I always seem to do my best thinking when I run. It’s all clear, you know? Anyway, the different machines help me work off my nervous energy from my work.

And thus, my day goes by. Today, however, as I said earlier in my excuse for shaving, I am meeting an old acquaintance of mine. A lady by the name of Rose Li. We shared a time together, but it didn’t work out. Basically that is the story. This is before my wife, much before her. Maria obviously knew about Rose, and really had no issue with our being friends, but I had really lost touch with her in recent years. She always had a way about her. Her beauty being the thing that really ingratiates itself upon people, but it’s also a lot more than that because she had ability to morph into the person she thought best for the situation. I always found her really fascinating. She’s really intelligent but rather chameleon-like.

We meet at the old café, a place that breeds memory and desire. We used to come here and as usual, she’s early. Her comfortable demeanor, the well-positioned book on her table and the gravitated rim of her glasses rest a little lower on her nose so that she can read more comfortably. She is wearing a sundress that generously shows the best curves on her body. She looks up and smiles. “Hey Redgy.” Not even Maria called me that. It makes Rose unique.

“Evening. What are you reading?” I ask

“House of Mirth” she replies, smiling.

“Edith Wharton.”

“I haven’t yet finished it, but I looked up the synopsis on Wikipedia. I don’t know if I like how it’s going to end.”

“Goddammit Rose, the ending is always the best part. I don’t get how you can live with yourself. It ruins the thing if you do that.”

“Meh,” she offhanded. “It’s interesting because the main character is created tragically. Like her beauty is the thing that allows her into high society. And she wants it so bad, but she’s predisposed to fail. The book and story line. They seem like they are just there to exploit her.”

“Isn’t everything though? You put enough things that work together that they make things blatantly obvious. It’s what you do to get your point across. Just little things that may clue your reader into what you’re doing or even bold statements.”

“Yeah.” She pauses. “It’s just that it seems so cheap. Like Wharton crafts a character that is just made to demonstrate the failings of society, the weak points and the beliefs Lily has that really don’t let her have an escape.”

“Lily is the main character?”

“Yeah.”

We pause for a while. Rose flips the book to its back and looks at it for a second. And I find myself becoming infatuated with her. Just like always. Just all the little things she does that make herself excruciatingly desirable. And I wonder if I could invite her back to my place, for just a second, before I mentally castigate myself for even letting the thought slip into my head.

“I am her.” She says, insightfully.

“No you aren’t.” I say defensively. “Mind you, I haven’t read the book in an exceedingly long time, but regardless, I mean, you’ve done very well for yourself. You’re independent. You don’t rely on anyone. I mean, okay, you know I consider you a very elegant and beautiful specimen of a woman, but I mean, you think for yourself.”

She chuckled. “Redgy the charmer.” I had to laugh at that one too. “You are missing something. Different beliefs. Us women are raised differently now. I could have been her in that situation. You see the book only works because it is crafted as such.”

I cut in. “Yeah, fucking books. They’re so calculated. I should know.” Calculate, you bastard.

“At any rate, I like the book, I definitely do, but sometimes I just want it to stop. It is doing too much to Lily. It’s almost unbelievable.”

“Did you read my book about the space cowboy?”I say, changing the subject.

“I loved that book. Redgy, it’s true, you become more of a person with each book. I mean, it might be that I know you so well, but I could see your thought process in the book. The way you ended it. It was liberating for you, wasn’t it? It was you.”

It takes me a little while to answer because she’s right. When I was writing it, I had two options. The main character could have died, and it would have ended a better story, or the character could survive. And looking back on it, I made the right choice for myself. You see, I was the space cowboy. And I made him survive. And it was later that I realized what I had done. He saved me. It takes me a long time to respond to Rose. She’s always been so perceptive.

“Anyway, I brought it up because from the way you describe House of Mirth, I think my book was similar. You know, you create a story in order to demonstrate what you think about yourself and the things that affect you. And you want to shed light on the things around you so that’s what I think Wharton was doing. It’s what I did in my book. I wanted to show the ability to be able to survive. It’s an innately human thing that even with our technological advances and our medicine and everything else, we have it. And we’ll give up anything for it. And that’s why Jack survives at the end of Heaven.”

Rose looked down and then drew her attention back to me. “Because we persevere.”

“Yes! That’s it. Because the antiquated notion of Darwinism doesn’t apply anymore and we create our own natural selection with technology and advances and everything. That’s why. Because we don’t need science of biology, but merely a will.”

“And what about your trip?”

“What about it?”

“How does that fit in? You tried leave society, Redge. We all know it. You had your perseverance and your survival. What happened?”

“You know I don’t want to talk about it.”

“I know you don’t want to talk about it.”

Afterwards the café was filled with an ambiguous sentiment of nostalgia and that feeling you get when you read the last page of The Great Gatsby, with tides and boats and the past and how it catches up to you. The smell of coffee lingered in the air and the music played up and coming artists. Rose and I talked and caught up and of course, she was doing fine. I never doubted her.

When we said our goodbyes, I walked down the street and looked up. The sky had darkened since we entered the café. In the city you can’t see stars. You can’t see the universe existing beyond the gaze of your eyes. And it puts everything in perspective. That there’s absurdity and fiction and a whole lot of other stuff you’ll never know. So you make the best you can with what you’re given and sometimes it takes adventures, literal and figurative, and you curse everything and praise what’s left. And you find some truth that you hold onto, that you may or may not like, but it’s there. So you make due.

The truth is I was scared.

The Apocalypse

The cigarette butt

hit the floor

of a gas-station

An Introduction to Fuko

For Jordan Reyes’ Second Writing Paper

A first note:

Dear Laura,

Jordan and I actually met in Chicago a few years ago. We were riding the el, which is the more mainstream public transportation system. The “Metra” is like an actual train that has several lines diverting to different parts of the suburbs and into the city. There are two systems of public transportation in the city. The el has more stops and is more easily accessible as it spreads to the individual neighborhoods and is fairly pervasive in the downtown area. You can really get anywhere in the city with it.

Anyway, I’m only bringing this up because I needed to tell you, Dr. Harris, that Jordan is an asshole.

Yes, indeed. Scoff, if you will, but let me shed a little bit of light for you on his character. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t regret giving him my cell phone number. I’d rather not get into the reason for why the two of us got along so swimmingly: it’s personal for both of us, but I ended up helping him out in a bit of a pickle and he let me work out some inner demons. I suppose we both owe each other. Let’s leave it at that.

And even if I did include it in here, Jordan could have completely taken out that part. I am only sending him this word document. He’s already plagiarized parts of an e-mail that I sent him. You remember that paper you got from me earlier on? Yeah. I wrote that. Well, it’s not like he plagiarized it per se, but rather that he didn’t tell me he was going to use it. Yes, I had given him parts of my writing and perhaps that’s cheating or plagiarizing, but don’t blame me, and don’t call my agent and don’t allow the university to have some sort of in to my private life: I simply don’t want to be bothered. I have important things to do.

By now, you’re asking yourself so this famous author has been allowing my student to use his work for class. And I will just say that it was not my fault. It was the young Mr. Reyes’ idea to use my work for his academics. As I said, Jordan is an asshole, and now I’m sure that you’re questioning his morality. You should.

Anyway, I hope that my writing helps. Even if it is just a violated copy.

Sincerely and Respectfully,

R. Fuko

Dearest Regimund,

I don’t want to be an asshole but I have another paper to write and I know it’s not your favorite thing to do. I know you don’t really like to do it but I don’t write so well so could you just do it for me or at least send me some things to work with? I can’t wait to see you again over winter break. I’ll pay for a meal of yours or something. Whatever you want. Seriously. But I really need some help with my paper. Its supposed to be about Huck Finn. I’m sure you have read him or something like them. Could you help me out?

Thank you so much,

Jordan

Dear Jordan,

You know I don’t feel comfortable doing this. I don’t know where you get off, personally, but consider this the last time that anything like this is going to happen. Oh yes I know our contract, but seriously, this is getting a bit ridiculous. You can’t just use me for your goddamn paper assignments. I’m a real person, you know. I can’t get bogged down by your trash: I have my own work to do, my own life to sort out and my own mind to worry about: I really can’t be allowing some college kid to be running my life and asking for favors.

I don’t know why I even put up with this, but seriously, let’s not do this again. And I feel fucking awful about it anyway. I can’t be doing stuff like this, it’s just not honest. I mean, yeah, you’re a terrible fucking writer, but seriously, you have a lot of resources. I’m sure there’s a writing group or something that can help you with papers.

We can talk more over the break, but honestly, this is going to be the last time.

R. Fuko

On the Nature of the Journey

(Dreams of Escapism)

Society has a way of invading you. It stops becoming a place in which to live and begins to become something that you have to escape. I don’t know if you’ve ever felt this way, but I have and I’ve felt it for a long time, and sometimes I still feel it. When I was younger it got to me: it got to me pretty bad. Enough for me to leave it or at least to try. You feel it in your bones, this primordial desire to exit because you feel like your air is getting crushed in your windpipe and you feel like the lingering buildings and hovering tunnels are just made out of walls and you realize that the borders aren’t things merely to cross but things that are designed to block. The world turns and you’re not allowed to rotate. The paths you walk are numbered and the breaths you take are manufactured. You feel like you’re boxed in and you can disregard the welling panic in your stomach but it won’t get any better. I wanted to leave you with some of the stuff I thought and some of the stuff that happened.

I grew up thinking that the institutions that surrounded me were things I had to pass through. Like. That was it, just that there were these obstacles that were there in order to make your end result the best that it could be. You don’t realize that you end up just sacrificing your freedom until you get to the point where you have freedom but you can’t even do anything with it because you start to get too old to do anything but be there and I thought that and it didn’t sit well with me and that’s when I got nervous that I would never be able to do any of the things that I really wanted. Because I may be a cynic, but I believe in dreams and sometimes I even believe in sacrifice, but I also believe, and this I believe more strongly than both of the other two, that they are mutually exclusive.

The key is to mature but not to grow old. The key is to not sacrifice that which is deemed most important. In this regard I have succeeded.

From the Early Journals of Early Journeys

5/7/19XX

A man stopped me today. He asked me “Quién eres?” Spanish for “Who are you?” a question often asked to us Gringos. Also a question that I try to avoid. Sometimes they ask “De donde eres?” a question that means “Where are you from?” but it really means the same thing. I could have said “Soy Americano,” which means, “I’m an American.” I could have said “Soy un escritor.” “I am a writer.” I could have said “Soy nadie.” “I’m no one.” But instead I said “Soy nada.”

“I’m nothing.”

1/12/19XX

The winter barks a cloudy breath. One that demands warning and necessitates shelter. For a wanderer, it is a near death wish, or maybe a death excuse, but it can also circumvent all of that and become a reason to bundle up and celebrate humanity, which is, after all, the only thing that has been keeping me warm. Literally.

A woman let me stay in her house and has given me the guest room. About now, I know that I’m in the general vicinity of the Southwest and furthermore, I’m in Colorado, but any further than that I have no idea. It’s cold. A good time to realize what’s important to you. You shuck off the weight in your backpack and use what you can as you hitchhike from one place to the next or you get on a train and huddle in the cargo or you just walk until you can’t go any more holding your thumb to the road.

The woman’s name is Leticia. She is elderly and is very kind to me. She prepared me a meal of mashed potatoes and roast chicken. Anything she made would have been better than the bickies [saltine-like food for mountaineers – ed.] and peanut butter that I have been eating for my trip. The water doesn’t taste like iodine because there’s no iodine in it. It’s pure. The warmth of a bath and a bed are harbingers of humanity.

It’s funny because there’s a level of comfort in society sometimes when you run across someone like Leticia. But it’s like that’s out of society because it isn’t an institution even though institutions allow for it to happen and it’s because of this that I don’t want to get close and I don’t want to have to hurt anyone anymore. And it’s funny that you feel so warm when you’re in the place from where you want to escape.

9/16/19XX

Lo más importante en conocer México es esto – El Mexicano es un mestizo. Ser Mexicano es ser mezclado. Ser mexicano es tener dos lados en la vida. Y los dos lados no se les gustan, pero son necesarios. Ser mexicano es tener una lucha siempre en la corazón.

(The most important thing needed in order to know Mexico is this – The Mexican is a mixture. To be Mexican is to be mixed. Being Mexican is to have two sides in life. And the two sides don’t like each other, but they’re necessary. To be Mexican is to always have a fight in the heart.)

12/25/19XX

It’s Christmas and God is dead. They said Jesus was born today but it wasn’t really today and everyone knows that. The books are lying to you. People just need to think for a second and remember that the Hebrew calendar is different than the standard one that we have nowadays and that’s just how it goes. But I love Christmas to be honest. It really does have that rosy feeling sometimes when you feel it in your bones that the community around you is sufficient and you really don’t need anything else.

It’s Christmas in Mexico and the family with which I’m staying is beautiful. It’s warm and the lights aren’t colored but they’re on, or at least there are candles. The walls are some sort of plaster or something and they reflect nicely the imperfections and the cracks that line the organic realty that is a house. There is sufficient comfort and the presents that go around aren’t much but they count and there’s a lot of faith and a lot of happiness and a lot of family and it’s times like these that I realize that society really does have the same warmth as a fire. And the similarity is the burning in the sense that a fire can spread to a forest and destroy things, but it can also create some beautiful moments where you know that there really is no heaven and there’s nothing beyond death but some pallid light that sooths and erases all the pain that has happened in the past as all memories but it’s alright because the present is beautiful and you can’t ask for anything more than the light and the warmth and the faces that surround. And circles really are complete.

On Mexico

Sometimes I wish I could go back there. I’m writing this at the present. Furthermore, I am writing this for Jordan, because this is where we meet. We meet because we agree with so many things that it’s almost like I am him. It’s weird, but it’s true. The burning desire to leave society behind and the influence of Mexico on our lives, but it’s something more than that too.

Jordan told me about a girl in Mexico. Her name was Laura and he says that she was beautiful. And I knew that he meant it because he spoke of her so eloquently and his brown eyes softened when he said her name. And he told me that he was in love with her and that they used to sit on her balcony and watch the stars and the village happen below them because they were literally above it, but they weren’t figuratively because they were the village at that time and all the noises and lights that flickered and chirped in society became them. And one time they even saw a comet.

And he told me that every night they talked about their days and about what they wanted to do and they knew that they both loved each other but couldn’t do anything about it because she was a Mexican and Jordan was nothing. And she couldn’t speak English and couldn’t go back across the border even though she said she would be moving to Chicago that year. They both knew she wouldn’t.

All things point to show that love is a result of chemicals or something that makes it out to be less than something that it is, but it can’t hurt it because love can be anything from a mother’s embrace to someone standing on a car and preaching the gospel. And it’s this sort of community-driven ambience that floats between you and all the people you’ll ever know and you realize that everything is worth it for this force.

So you look up at the stars at night and wonder if Laura is looking at the same constellation.

And you wonder. And you wander.

The Watchmaker part 2

A watch is a measured entity and also an entity which measures. It needs to be exact or otherwise it serves no purpose. A watch consists of a few extremely important parts, these being a movement, which serves the purpose of moving the hands, which are the second part, a dial for the movement to display the correct time to the human eye, and a strap. Naturally, the more done up watches have more flourishes that either deal with entertainment, logistics or aesthetics: an entertaining purpose would be a quasi-craps table being visible on the dial; a logistical purpose would be the date; and an aesthetic purpose would be crystals surrounding the dial. These final flourishes are not necessary for the watch’s intrinsic purpose, but can add to the detail or value of a watch.

The movement can be done in two main ways, which relate to the different types of watches. Typically, a watch is divided into two different types, a digital watch and an analog watch. To the layman, the digital watch displays up to four digits, where the first two are the hour, up to twelve, or in some cases twenty-four, and the second two display the minutes, from zero-zero to fifty-nine. The layman views the digital watch as a watch that displays four Arabic numbers: the analog watch on the other hand is a watch that has two hands that display the time, the smaller hand indicating the hour on a twelve-large-notched dial, and the longer hand indicating the minutes on the same dial, but using smaller teeth within the notches to reveal the minutes, as the intervals between each notch has five teeth.

To the true watch connoisseur, there are two types of watches as well, but they don’t really relate to the display of the time. Instead, a watch is defined by two different types of movement. One is called mechanical and the other digital, but it has absolutely nothing to do with how the time is displayed. Instead, the mechanical watch uses the old system of twisting a coil that slowly unwinds in order to get the gears turning. One has to wind the watch in order to give it power. Many modern watches have automatic winding that relates to a person’s body movements, so the movements of a person’s wrist will automatically wind the watch. It’s pretty neat. For a digital watch, the watchmaker uses a quartz that resonates at a high frequency and moves the hand on its own. The digital watch has much fewer parts than the mechanical one, but is sometimes more accurate, as it doesn’t need to be wound, or lose seconds due to a not completely perfect wind – no coil will ever be perfectly wound, as there is no such thing as a perfect circle, and over time, there will be seconds lost in a mechanical watch.

To the non-questioning eye, the watch spells money or time and usually both, since one knows when one must be at a certain place. The watch reinforces the necessity of punctuality as it can be constantly worn and looked at for reference, since it sits upon one’s wrist. The watch is used for convenience for a person, and though cell-phones are taking over the realm of watches, as they use satellite positioning in general to have the time or even the internet, which remove the human aspect from the time-issue several leagues, miles really if you use actual distance to space.

But the watch is an extremely interesting object because of its intricacy and exaction. The process of making a watch can take months or years depending on the type, and a good watch is planned for a few months before its creation is underway. It’s an incredibly well-thought out, and very detailed, process that took millennia to create and some of the brightest minds that the world has offered. It is so incredibly measured and there is such perfection in watches, both mechanical and digital that they require a human mind to create them.

My real point is this. If you were on an empty planet full of sand. If you didn’t have to eat, sleep, or drink but only went walking and wandering through the day. And eventually you climbed to the peak of an enormous sand dune that simply was and had no explanation and you found this watch at the top of everything.

Who was the watchmaker?

Not related to Jeffrey John Killian

Yeah, I seen it. Then again, I seen a lot of things. The war wasn't kind to any of us.

R. Fuko

The watchmaker part 1

R. Fuko

I had this dream today. There are parts I can remember, but only small flashes, the same way it always happens when you open your eyes. There was a man who was making people. I forget what he looked like, but the part I can remember had me walking in this cavernous room, circular as well, and this man was pouring blood into someone, but it wasn’t exactly blood, just some type of surrogate synthetic blood that achieved life-making purposes. The man he was creating had some sort of uncanny undertone, so that I knew by looking at him that he wasn’t completely human, only nearly human, if there can really be a qualification to that sort of adjective. And I asked him, unbelieving, “you’re making people?” But I said it in a kind of angry voice, like I thought he was doing something wrong, but the man just smiled at me. And he turned to me, leaned over as his eyes stirred behind thick glasses and simply said.

“Yes.”

And then I looked at the people around me and started wondering if non-humans were walking around, like some sort of elaborate, elastic wool not only pulled over my eyes, but that completely encompassed the world. Like maybe there were these beings that simply looked and acted like humans, but really were sub-humans, or non-humans, as I stated earlier. Creations, rather than organics, if that makes sense. Mechanical. As if everything around were this huge mechanical system where we could only see a sheet that was covering it: we had some idea of the shape beneath, but what was it doing? Who was controlling it? And why was it there?

You’re alone on this empty beach. No. You’re alone on an empty planet covered with sand and you’ve been walking for days and days. You don’t need to eat, sleep or even breathe, but walking is the only thing to do, as if nothing else occurs to the mind. All of a sudden atop this huge sand dune, wracked by wind, pillaged by indifference, you find a watch.

Think I Could Beat Him Up

“Think I could beat him up?”

“What?”

“Her new boyfriend. Do you think I could beat him up?”

“What the fuck, dude. Get over it.”

John leaned against the rail that looked down on his high school gymnasium. His eyes scoured over the crowd and rested on a small girl enthusiastically chattering with a good-looking male. He pursed his lips, watching her shameless flirtation with what he knew to be her new boyfriend.

“She didn’t have to bring the fucking guy here, though, you know? God, this is bullshit. I mean, we fucking break up and she’s already hounding some douchebag asshole right off the bat. Bitch can’t deal with being single, fucking boy crazy, insecure.”

“Fucking relax dude.” His friend eyed him unsurely, analyzing John’s own insecurity. “Sounds like you want her to be unhappy or something.”

John started up defensively, “it’s not that, man, it’s just I wish she had you know mourned me a bit more before giving herself to the first thing that crossed the street. I mean, she even knew this prick before we broke up: elementary school friends or some shit like that. Makes me wonder, you know. I mean whatever, the girl was a fucking waste, like she just fucking took all my time up, couldn’t even begin to like the things that I loved. You know what she liked?”

“What?”

“Shopping. Fucking shopping and day-time television. Fucking boring shit. Not even smart or anything.”

“Good, then you can get over her,” his friend said, smiling and looking back over the basketball court.

“Fuck you asshole. I don’t like the girl anymore, it’s just I guess I’m bitter.”

“Yeah, I know. You’ll do good John: you can do way better, we all knew it. Fuck, even YOU knew it.”

John kept his lean and swiveled his eyes to watch high schoolers play ball. It was homecoming after all. When all the memories become unkempt and swarm across the mind like civil war armaments. That’s just how it goes.

“That’s just how it goes,” said John.